You grow up in life preparing for many things what you going to do that day, what you are going to do do this weekend, and what you are going to do with the rest of your life. In this process, grand plans are made. Preparation is undertaken. These things start from the very beginning with learning to walk, learning to ride a bike, and learning that life will sometimes throw pitfalls your way. Through this process good days come, bad days come, but during all of this the learning process is contently in motion.
Landmarks also come along the path graduations, first jobs, and new friends come out of what seemed yesterday to be nothing. The fluidity of the daily routine can carry you down the river to the point you wonder where you are. This can leave a person wondering what do I know. What was true yesterday is suddenly not true today.
As Socrates once said, "As for me, all I know is that I know nothing." This statement sums up the content of my knowledge because life is in constant motion. Truth except for a persons values is constantly changing. This fact represents why an ever changing life must be dealt with daily, and in the end I truly know nothing.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Constructive Nerves
Why does life have to be so tense at times? What purpose does it serve? Why is this feeling so persistent? These feelings manifest themselves in so many ways throughout the course of the days, weeks, and months. They can be positive and negative sometimes at the same time. Such pull between polar opposites can leave feelings of strain and/ or exhilaration.
Today for example, someone came up to me in a panic saying, Amos, I need something and I need it now. Can you help me? I did not hesitate. I said sure I can help. Once the task was accepted, a feeling of exhilaration came over me. I immediately started asking the questions in my head. Can I do it? Can I find the missing item in time? It was a challenge, a puzzle to be solved.
On the other hand, challenges at work seem to bring on another set of nerves. The request is pretty much the same, and the process usually has a similar beginning. Amos, can you help me? The same questions come up as well. Can I do it? Can I solve the problem? Can I find the missing piece of the puzzle? However, the feelings are definitely not the same. My stomach will tie in a knot, and a sudden feeling of pressure will come over me. The feeling is definitely not constructive.
Don't get me wrong, the feeling of exhilaration is still present. I still want to find the missing piece. These detractor emotions just seem to take away from the process. Maybe it is the newness of the job? Maybe it is the feeling of not being in total control of the situation? The root cause is certainly not clear.
I do know a new avenue to express the non constructive anxiousness must be found. It must be turned into a feeling of proactive problem solving. I need to ask more questions if I do not understand. I need to seek help and not try to solve the problem alone. I already practice these things, but they must be done more readily without wasting time. The last thing above all else, I must not spin my wheels. I must do.
Today for example, someone came up to me in a panic saying, Amos, I need something and I need it now. Can you help me? I did not hesitate. I said sure I can help. Once the task was accepted, a feeling of exhilaration came over me. I immediately started asking the questions in my head. Can I do it? Can I find the missing item in time? It was a challenge, a puzzle to be solved.
On the other hand, challenges at work seem to bring on another set of nerves. The request is pretty much the same, and the process usually has a similar beginning. Amos, can you help me? The same questions come up as well. Can I do it? Can I solve the problem? Can I find the missing piece of the puzzle? However, the feelings are definitely not the same. My stomach will tie in a knot, and a sudden feeling of pressure will come over me. The feeling is definitely not constructive.
Don't get me wrong, the feeling of exhilaration is still present. I still want to find the missing piece. These detractor emotions just seem to take away from the process. Maybe it is the newness of the job? Maybe it is the feeling of not being in total control of the situation? The root cause is certainly not clear.
I do know a new avenue to express the non constructive anxiousness must be found. It must be turned into a feeling of proactive problem solving. I need to ask more questions if I do not understand. I need to seek help and not try to solve the problem alone. I already practice these things, but they must be done more readily without wasting time. The last thing above all else, I must not spin my wheels. I must do.
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